BLACK
Green Tea
I’ve been in my head so much
I’m getting kind of dizzy
Overthinking this and that
The choices keep me busy
Running like olympics
Hope to stumble
Hella trippy
Guess that gene ain’t miss me
Talking to myself
No psilocybin but I’m hazy
Been this way so long
I’m convinced that I’m just crazy
Heard I could get help and I’ve
been thinking bout it lately
Family say I need some Jesus
Say I’m being lazy
Friends just say I need to turn up
Stop crying like a baby
Cuz talking ‘bout
my issues is a no no
And looking strong is king
Swinging back and forth
just like a pend’lum
Often thinking “am I just alive,
not really living?”
Searching for the
yellow bricks that lead me
To the answers of existence
Oh how my heart has stiffened
From words unwritten
Self-harming indecision
Inner division
Digging myself a grace no kidding
But it’s just my normal day
Ancestors do my bidding
I need a fixing
My angels they be snitching
With no tongue bitten
So I stop and listen
To learn a better way
If you let this world will turn you
bitter like a green tea
Wondering where you went wrong
like ya momma and ya aunties
Carr’ing ‘round those hand-me-down weights
‘Cause if you let this world will turn you
bitter like a green tea
Wondering where you went wrong
like ya momma and ya aunties
Free your heart and don’t you wait
If I do the work for myself
Maybe we’ll be free
If I do the work for myself maybe we’ll be free
No more time for la di da
I’ve got to do the deed
Gotta find a way to get us some peace
Lyrics by Jada N.E. Henderson
© 2020
My Time
Welcome to the real World
Life is in the making
Eye are wide open
To unyielding chances
Standing in my way is
Mirroring reflections
Filled with distractions
To ease my mind
Lately I've been feeling a serious low
Thought I could just sit still and let it go
Feeling the bottom of a steep plateau
Guess it's time to take control
Cuz I'm so done
Waiting on the sideline
No need for permission
I'm reclaiming my time
Lessons in the real world
What you want go take it
Things steady moving
Forget about your patience
Life isn't waiting
For doubting and debating
Living in the silence
Won’t ease my mind
Lately I've been hearing a series of no's
This time I can’t sit still and let it go
Feeling the weight of a mountain load
Guess it's time to take control
Cuz I'm so done
Waiting on the sideline
No need for permission
I'm reclaiming my time
Cuz I'm so done
Waiting on the sideline
No need for permission
I'm reclaiming my time
Lyrics by Ivontae Corbin & Jada N.E. Henderson
© 2019
Doors
Sweet mystery
I'm tempted to see
What it would be like
If I let you inside of me
As cautious as can be
'Cause it could end in misery
With endless possibilities
We'll never know if we don't go
Risk it ready to explore new views
(Risk it all with you)
Opening every door for clues
(Opening every door)
We've got something I'm interested in
Who knows what we could do
It's come clear to me
Crystal clear I can see
You might be the one to
Give me everything I need
Fearful as can be
Gotta let the heart free
To find endless possibilities
To know where this could end for sure
Risk it ready to explore new views
(Risk it all with you)
Opening every door for clues
(Opening every door)
We've got something I'm interested in
Who knows what we could do
I'm overjoyed 'bout falling
I swear
But deep down inside I'm scared
Out of my mind
(My mind)
'Cause I'm 23 and you're 25
And I've had visions of our life
(You might be the one)
I see myself standing by your side
And maybe even being your wife
Let's open up and take flight
'Cause I'm ready to explore
(I will risk it all with you)
Said I want to
Open up every door with you
Ready to leave my past
behind for you
We've got something I'm interested in
Who knows what we could do
Said I'm ready
I'm ready
I'm ready, ready yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Who knows what we could be
We could be something
So amazing, baby
Yeah
Lyrics by Jada N.E. Henderson
© 2020
Dont wanna
(Be Alone)
Silence is one thing I loathe
Can’t sit with truths that I know
I know it’s been a while
Because I blocked you on my telephone
But I’m calling, hope you don’t mind
If I make you my baggy’s home
Cuz all of this stuff is too much
To carry on my own
I don’t wanna be alone
I don’t wanna be alone
Can’t believe I’m doing this
But my pride is far gone
Really hate to ask this of you
But don’t leave me alone
Tell me I’ve been on your mind
And maybe that will filter
All the thoughts that are clouding mine
Just looking for a place
To lay my burdens down for the night
(Just for the night)
Don’t mean to sound desperate but
Please call me when you find the time
(I hope you find the time)
Cuz I just miss your presence
And I know you know the reason why
(Only you know why)
I don’t wanna be alone
I don’t wanna be alone
Can’t believe I’m doing this
But my pride is far gone
Really hate to ask this of you
But don’t leave me alone
I don’t wanna be alone
Could use a shoulder to cry on
I know it’s been a while
But my pride is far gone
Please just give a damn
And don’t leave me alone
(Only if you want to)
I will admit
Feeling this way
Has made me be irresponsible
I want you even though I don’t need you
Lyrics by Jada N.E. Henderson
© 2020
Georgia
Feeling homesick lately
I’ve been thinking maybe
I can book a one way flight
Back to familiar faces
Comfortable spaces
Where I don’t even have to try
Living dreams imagined
Dying to be old fashioned
And just leave it all behind
Think I’ve finally made up my mind
Decided for myself
Gotta leave cuz going home feels best
Wanna go back to Georgia
(Take me back)
Wanna go back
Wanna go back to Georgia
(Take me back)
Wanna go back
Cuz I can’t stand to stay here
Losing focus lately
Having thoughts of maybe
Giving up to call it quits
Packed all my shit this evening
My midnight train’s soon leaving
And I don’t think that I should miss
Counting all conflictions
Uncompleted missions
Do I dare to try again
Seems I still can’t make up my mind
And I don’t wanna give up yet
But gotta leave cuz going home feels best
Wanna go back to Georgia
(Take me back)
Wanna go back
Wanna go back to Georgia
(Take me back)
Wanna go back
Cuz I can’t stand to stay here
A runaway with no delight
There’s something missing
(There’s something missing
Where can I find it)
Far away from southern skies
That used to hold me
To make a stormy mess of my dreams
Wanna go back to Georgia
(Take me back)
Oh yes I wanna go back
And I think I'll be leaving soon
Wanna go back to Georgia
(Take me back)
Cuz I wanna go back
Wanna go back to…
That’s what I wanna do
Wanna go back to Georgia
(Take me back)
I’m leaving right now
Know it’s too soon
But I don’t know what else to do
I wanna
I wanna
I wanna
Cuz I can’t stand to stay here
Lyrics by Jada N.E. Henderson
© 2020
The City
This is my sentiment
Questioning if being here
is truly fulfilling
I feel like I’m out of bounds
Wanting to know the
meaning of belonging
Pacing with my head hanging down
Circling like a merry-go-round
Wandering around in the city
Wandering around in the city
Wandering around in the city
Wandering around in the city
Grayscale of cloudy skies
Shadow the way
To hide solid grounds
(Solid grounds)
Tracing old steps of mine
Searching for remains
of shattered wishes
Voices of so many around
Paying me no mind while
Wandering around in the city
Wandering around in the city
Wandering around in the city
Wandering around in the city (2x)
And I’m getting kind of tired
Searching for home as I’m
Wandering around in the city
Wandering around in the city
Wandering around in the city
Wandering around in the city (2x)
Lyrics by Jada N.E. Henderson
© 2020
Petty
Can I be petty
Let me be petty
She ain't me
What’s gotten into me
Is it my ego
All I’m sayin’ is
I feel the energy
This ain’t a real thing
She’s just a replacement
You say new year and a new thing
It seems like a facade to me
You say that to make
yourself feel complete
Enjoy painting with your
temporary colors
That very soon will fade
It won’t equate
Cuz you’ve erased what we
so sacredly created
Can’t replace it
Can I be petty
Oh I'm so petty
Are you desperate
Am I just crazy
(Am I losing my mind)
And seeing my own things
Or is it really this clear
You settle cuz I’m not near
(You're settling)
Cuz you hate to be lonely
Don’t wanna let your heart breathe
Downgrade cuz you couldn't match me
Try but you’ll never
find someone like me
Sailing along in your shallow sea
Enjoy painting with your
temporary colors
That very soon will fade
It won’t equate
Cuz you’ve erased what we
so sacredly created
Can’t replace it
(Everything that we created is dust)
Can’t replace it
Enjoy painting with your
temporary colors
That very soon will fade
It won’t equate
Cuz you’ve erased what we
so sacredly created
(Y-y-y-you should know by now)
Can’t replace it
(You can't replace my love, yeah)
Call me petty
Call me petty
Call me petty
Call me petty
Lyrics by Jada N.E. Henderson
© 2019
To You
(Patience)
I've been creeping crawling
Searching for a light
Running out of breath
Bending over backwards
Kneeling to the sky
Is there anyone left?
I'm just pacing myself
Bracing for the tides
Swimming in the depths
Drowning in my mind
But maybe it's okay
to walk to the finish line
Cuz I hear a voice say all the time
Patience
I can feel it coming
Moving slowly
Surely you'll hear it
Sweet whispers
Psalms of nirvana
Take my hand and
I’ll do the honor
Patience
Tell me why you ponder
Wearing yourself thin
With the opposition
Focus only on you're wishing
And it will come back to you
I’ve been racing rampant
Looking for a fire
The smoke is in the air
Tip toeing
making sure the way is right
Then running with no care
(I don't care)
My earth quakes
Shatter shifting overnight
Feel it in my soul
The wait might be kind
(So I’ll be still)
And sing a song
while I’m waiting by
Patience
I can feel it coming
Moving slowly
Surely you'll hear it
Sweet whispers
Psalms of nirvana
Take my hand and
I’ll do the honor
Patience
Tell me why you ponder
Wearing yourself thin
With the opposition
Focus only on you're wishing
And it will come back to you
Yes
It will come
B-b-b-back
Back to you
(It will come back to you)
If you say what you want
And say it out loud
Lyrics by Jada N.E. Henderson & Ivontae Corbin
© 2020
Comfortable
I’m coming back to my senses
All I really need is me
Closing the gates to my magic
No entry without a key
Here I am back to my center
finding the space to relax
Finally here in my solace
Taking the peace back
Sometimes I don’t mind company
But people can be draining
This privacy is needed ‘cause
Nothing feels much better
Than choosing to be alone
Taking time for yourself
Acting like you lost your phone
Being self indulgent
Even though it might feel wrong
Some might call it selfish
But this feeling’s overdue
There’s no better place for me
Than in my solitude
I am so comfortable
Sitting alone in my room
Daydreaming
dancing through world anew
Only these four walls know what I do
I love being alone
I really love being alone
Doing whatever I want to do
When I’m alone
In my zone
Don’t get offended
‘Cause I canceled plans
Just decided my best confidant is me
Just wanted noise for distraction
Now I'm filling places no one can complete
Sometimes I don’t mind company
But people drive me crazy
Can’t bare with all the madness
So I forfeit the apparatus
Meant it when I said it
I don't want a rendezvous
If you just don’t get it
Guess I’ve got to cut you lose
Some might call it selfish
But this feeling's overdue
There’s no better place for me
Than in my solitude
I am most comfortable
Sitting alone in my room
Daydreaming
dancing through world anew
Only these four walls know what I do
I love being alone
I really love being alone
Doing whatever I want to do
When I’m alone
I am most comfortable
Sitting alone in my room
Daydreaming
dancing through world anew
Only these four walls know what I do
I love being alone
I really love being alone
Doing whatever I want to do
When I’m alone
In my zone
In my zone
In my zone
Lyrics by Jada N.E. Henderson & Ivontae Corbin
© 2020
Twenty-
Three
Last year I was down
always looking around
At the things I was seeing
wondering “why not me?”
Spent way too much time
too much energy
Worried 'bout people
who don’t know I’m breathing
Overthinking little shit
all in my head
Constantly the death of me
like overkill
A little too numb to feel
Wasting my younger days
Lately I been feeling
like a change must come
Moving onto brighter
from those darker days
Use em as a lesson
all the hurt and pain
Doing what I can
to never live it again
On the 23rd you know
I’m turning 23
Gotta take advantage
of this high energy
Manifesting all of my dreams
Watch them come along
One year older
A couple heart aches stronger
23 might be my lucky number
So I'mma leave it all in the past
One year older
A couple heart aches stronger
23 might be my lucky number
So I'mma leave it all in the past
Last year I felt stuck
in all my crazy ways
Felt as though my sanity
was taken away
Riding wild emotions
like merry-go-rounds
Treated like a fraction
Breaking myself down
Doubting all my greatness when
I knew it was no good for me
Uh huh (uh huh)
Lately I’ve been loving
all the change I see
Think that I’m becoming
who I wanna be
Got a little peace of mind
I’m healing scars
Still got some work to do
This heart’s my job
On the 23rd I’m turning 23
Gotta take advantage
of this high energy
And manifest all that I want to see
Watch it as it comes
One year older
A couple heart aches stronger
23 might be my lucky number
So I'mma leave it all in the past
One year older
A couple heart aches stronger
23 might be my lucky number
So I'mma leave it all in the past
I'mma leave it all in the past
I'mma leave it all in the past
Lyrics by Jada N.E. Henderson
© 2019